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Contracted to Our Own Bright Eyes

Shakespeare’s Sonnet 1 is basically a passive-aggressive guilt trip dressed up in iambic pentameter. “From fairest creatures we desire increase”, translate that from Elizabethan for what it really means: you’re too goddamn beautiful to keep it all to yourself, so make a baby already. But here’s Ava on my boat, reciting this thing, and neither of us are hearing the baby part. We’re hearing the other shit.

“Feed’st thy light’s flame with self-substantial fuel, / Making a famine where abundance lies.” That’s the line, isn’t it? That’s the one that lands when you’re sitting on a boat named after a broken-down horse in the Berkeley Marina, watching something die that we both maybe loved but couldn’t figure out how to save. Self-substantial fuel. Burning yourself up. A famine where abundance lies.

The Berkeley Marina at the end of something is about as romantically desolate as it gets without being obvious about it. Not the Golden Gate, not Big Sur, not some wind-swept dramatic bullshit. Just boats that mostly don’t go anywhere, water that’s half-polluted, the Bay Bridge in the distance like a reminder of all the places were not going.

 
 

Here’s what Sonnet 1 actually is: it’s about narcissism. Shakespeare’s calling out someone who’s “contracted to thine own bright eyes,” too in love with their own reflection to give anything away. “Tender churl” making “waste in niggarding.” Hoarding yourself.

But when it’s over, when you’re both sitting there knowing it’s over, that accusation doesn’t land the way Shakespeare meant it. Because maybe we were both doing that. Maybe that’s what endings are: two people who ran out of the ability to be generous with each other, who got too small, too careful, too eaten up by their own needs.

And she’s reciting this. Not reading it, reciting it. Which means she knew it, had it in her head, chose it. That’s either the most honest thing or the cruelest, and I suspect it’s both. The gluttony of endings: eating what should have fed the world. Both of you complicit. Both of you the grave.

Ava Roy, Shakespeare’s Sonnet #1

 

the life at sea

Solipsism sphere on Rocinante….

jamie lyons, sailing, rocinante, Solipsism Sphere
There is nothing more enticing, disenchanting, and enslaving than the life at sea.
Joseph Conrad, Typhoon

Franconia Performance Salon #13

The wine was flowing, cheap and plentiful. The food? Thrown together. Not Michael’s usual spread, no carefully considered dishes that made you remember why communal eating matters. The kind of afterthought that tells you nobody’s heart is really in it anymore.

The audience. Fuck me, the audience. The Game of Thrones Burning Man type has fully taken over. You know the ones, tech money masquerading as bohemian, people who think buying a fur coat and some goggles makes them transgressive, who treat counterculture like a costume they can put on and take off. They were there… not for the art.

The night had no rhythm. No flow. Things just happened, one after another, with all the cohesion of a YouTube playlist on shuffle. Performances as content blocks rather than parts of a conversation.

I was thinking about the early salons. When the room felt electric with possibility. When people came to take risks and fail interestingly rather than to pad their CVs with another line item. Before it became another stop on the San Francisco arts tourism circuit.

Now Rebecca Chaleff and Rebecca Ormiston brought actual commitment to their work. And Richie Rhombus, that magnificent storyteller, got up and reminded everyone what this whole experiment was supposed to be about. Not polish. Not professionalism. But risk. Raw, uncompromising risk. For maybe twenty minutes, the original energy of the early salons came flickering back. The room woke up. The Burning Man types stopped checking their phones.

It mattered. Briefly, it mattered again.

And then Vivek Narayan closed out the night with something genuinely wonderful. The kind of performance that justifies the whole salon concept, why we started this in the first place, why it mattered before it got colonized by people who think radical art is something you consume between DJ sets.

Problem was, by that point, half the dilettante crowd had already drifted off. They’d gotten their wine, their Instagram moment, their chance to tell people they support experimental art. Their Ubers had come. They had other parties to hit, other scenes to be seen at, probably something with better lighting and DJs.

The people who actually gave a damn stayed, but we were a smaller group by then.

Franconia Performance Salon #13: performances by Nathalie Brilliant, Yula Pauly, Richie Rhombus, Omer Gal, Rebecca Chaleff, Rebecca Ormiston, and Vivek Narayan 

Franconia Performance Salon

Rebecca Chalef

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Performance Art, San Francisco

Nathalie Brilliant

Franconia Performance Salon

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A ritual is the enactment of a myth. And, by participating in the ritual, you are participating in the myth. And since myth is a projection of the depth wisdom of the psyche, by participating in a ritual, participating in the myth, you are being, as it were, put in accord with that wisdom, which is the wisdom that is inherent within you anyhow. Your consciousness is being re-minded of the wisdom of your own life. I think ritual is terribly important.
Joseph Campbell

These enunciatory operations

Speculation: exploring a new performance spaceEuripides‘ Andromeda?

andromeda, Pillar Point
Walking affirms, suspects, tries out, transgresses, respects, etc., the trajectories it “speaks”. All the modalities sing a part in the chorus, changing from step to step, stepping in through proportions, sequences, and intensities which vary according to the time, the path taken and the walker. These enunciatory operations are of an unlimited diversity.
Michel de Certeau, The Practice of Everyday Life

Titus Andronicus at Sutro Baths

Sutro Baths, these magnificent corpse pits of concrete and rebar where the Pacific chews on what’s left of a San Francisco Belle Époque dream. And there, in the ruins, someone’s staging a reading of Titus Andronicus. That play. The one that makes Hamlet look like a fucking therapy session.

Vengeance is in my heart, death in my hand,
Blood and revenge are hammering in my head
William Shakespeare Titus Andronicus, 2.3

Shakespeare, Titus, Sutro Baths, site specific theatre, San Francisco

This might be the only place this play should ever be performed. Here. In the bones of something that used to matter, that used to be grand, that the ocean is slowly reclaiming like an eviction notice written in salt.

Because Titus is the play Shakespeare wrote before he learned to lie to us prettily. Before he figured out how to make murder look like poetry, how to make revenge look like justice. This is the ur-text, twenty-four years old and full of pure uncut rage, bodies piling up like a Jacobean snuff film, and everyone’s eating everyone else’s children. There’s no redemption here. No catharsis. Just blood and more blood until the stage is a fucking abattoir.

And you put that there? In those ruins? Where Sutro’s vision of Democratic Bathing for the Masses, seven pools, glass ceilings, tropical plants, the whole utopian nightmare, burned down in ’66 and nobody bothered to rebuild it because by then the dream was already dead anyway?

Jean Genet The Balcony at The Old Mint

My talent will be the love I feel for that which constitutes the world of prisons and penal colonies. Not that I want to transform them or bring them around to your kind of life, or that I look upon them with indulgence or pity: I recognize in thieves, traitors and murderers, in the ruthless and the cunning, a deep beauty — a sunken beauty — which I deny you.
Jean Genet, The Aesthetics of Evil

Collected Works The Balcony at The Old Mint Poster

Jean Genet: the motherfucker understood. Not in some grad school seminar way, but in his bones, in his blood, in whatever diseased magnificent corner of his soul produced these wet dreams about power and sex and the gorgeous rot underneath civilization’s marble facade.

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And Michael and I, we took that understanding and shoved it inside San Francisco’s Old Mint like a fist through glass.

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Because what else is the Old Mint but America’s own house of illusions? All that Greco-Roman architectural horseshit, those columns designed to make you genuflect before Capital itself, the literal temple where they minted the lies we agreed to call currency. And then, and this is the part that made me lose my mind when I found out, after World War II, they turned part of it into a CIA station. A CIA station. The temple of money becomes the temple of secrets. Espionage in the counting house. Spies operating out of the vaults.

Ryan Tacata, site specific theatre, jean genet, the balcony, old mint, san francisco, collected works

You couldn’t write better Genet if you tried.

Nathalie Brilliant, site specific theatre, jean genet, the balcony, old mint, san francisco, collected works, performance

We staged The Balcony there. It was so obvious it was brilliant, or maybe so brilliant it was obvious, I could never tell the difference and neither could Genet.

Genet, The Balcony, site specific theatre, San Francisco

These photographs I took, they’ve got a quality, that thing where the theater becomes more real than reality, which is exactly what Genet was screaming about. The costumes dripping with that baroque excess, Latifa’s couture against cold institutional stone. Our performers half, swallowed by shadows in rooms that actually held power once, back when power still needed physical vaults instead of just servers in Dubai.

There’s Ryan Tacata’s Carmen working those ecclesiastical robes, the General and the Judge and the Bishop all playing dress-up in a building that was designed for dress-up, for the grand theater of legitimacy. Our beggar’s girl, Nathalie Brilliant, looking like she crawled out of a Caravaggio by way of the Tenderloin.

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And the thing is, the thing Genet knew and we were betting everything on, is that there’s no difference. The brothel and the government building and the intelligence bureau, the fantasy and the institution, the whore and the bishop and the spy, it’s all the same con, the same gorgeous, necessary, murderous pageant. We’re all just playing roles in someone else’s wet dream of order.

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We didn’t do some safe black-box production. We took Genet’s script about revolutionaries trying to storm the palace of illusions and staged it in an actual palace, a monument to American empire at its most grandiose and delusional. That took either courage or madness, and the best work never bothers to distinguish between the two.

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What kills me looking back at these images is how much they look like documentary photographs from some revolution that never quite happened, or maybe one that’s always happening, always about to crest, always on the verge. That’s San Francisco’s story too, isn’t it? All that perpetual uprising against itself.

Val Sinkler, Collected Works, site specific theatre, Old Mint, san francisco, Jean Genet, The Balcony

Genet would’ve dug it. The thief finding his way into the treasury, making it his whorehouse, his theater, his church. Making it tell the truth for once.

Nathaniel Berman, Collected Works, site specific theatre, Jean Genet, The Balcony, Old Mint, San Francisco

the power to open man up

Speculation: how we work backstage at San Francisco’s Old Mint putting together a site specific theater production of Jean Genet’s The Balcony at Old Mint with Derek Phillips and Tonyanna Borkovi.

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Who but the artist has the power to open man up, to set free the imagination? The others – priest, teacher, saint, statesman, warrior – hold us to the path of history. They keep us chained to the rock, that the vultures may eat out our hearts. It is the artist who has the courage to go against the crowd; he is the unrecognized “hero of our time” – and of all time.
Henry Miller, Stand Still Like the Hummingbird

The Tender Archaeology of Our Disposable Souls: Notes on Marker’s Junkyard Prophecy

I don’t know what Chris Marker was smoking when he assembled this film, but Jesus Christ, the archaeology of our disposable souls rendered in busted transistors and cracked plastic, every discarded thing a little tombstone for the five minutes we thought it mattered before we needed the new thing, the better thing, the thing that would finally make us whole, which it never did, which it never could, because we’re all just temporary arrangements of matter pretending we’re not headed for the same heap.

 

What really destroys me about this whole thing: Marker understood. That crazy French genius with his camera and his obsession with memory, he’s basically saying HEY LOOK THIS IS YOUR BRAIN ON EVERYTHING and we’re all too busy, too distracted to notice we’re already IN the junkyard, we’re PART of it, we’re the junk AND the people throwing it away simultaneously. And there’s something almost tender in how he frames it, not mourning, not celebrating, just looking. Really looking at the detritus like it’s a language we forgot how to read, like these mountains of discarded civilization are speaking in tongues about who we really are when nobody’s keeping score.

Chris Maker Junktopia, Emeryville Mudflats

This is poetry without the pretension, man. Rock and roll without the guitars. The truth we spend our whole lives running from, shot through with this weird, fierce compassion for all of it, the garbage, the ghosts, the whole beautiful fucked-up human project of making and breaking and forgetting and trying again.

These Beautiful Motherfuckers Actually Did It

Look at these people. Really look at them.

These are theater people, the real kind. The ones doing Genet in a defunct federal building in San Francisco. Site-specific theater, which means they’re not just memorizing lines; they’re wrestling with architecture, with history, with the bones of a building that’s got more stories than any script.

You want to talk about hard work? These people are grinding. Every night, they’re walking that razor’s edge between art and disaster. No net. No second takes. No safety in editing. It’s raw, it’s live, and if you fuck up, everyone sees it happen in real time. That takes stones. That takes commitment to something bigger than yourself.

And Genet, Jesus. That’s not crowd-pleasing material. That’s confrontational, dark, challenging stuff that demands you bring your whole soul to work. These artists chose that. They chose difficulty over comfort, substance over safety.

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What gets me is the faces in these portraits. There’s intelligence there. Purpose. The kind of worn, in dedication you see in people who’ve made peace with never being rich or famous. They’re doing this because they have to, because something inside them demands it. That’s the difference between artists and entertainers, artists don’t have a choice. This is how they process the world, how they make sense of the chaos.

Theater people are a particular breed. They’re building something that disappears the moment it’s finished. They’re pouring everything into performances that maybe seventy people a night will see, that won’t be preserved or monetized or turned into content. It’s ephemeral. It’s sacred. It’s the definition of doing something for its own sake.

That’s why you love them. Because they’re the real thing.

The Balcony Cast (Collected Works company)

Teaching Without an Axe: Or, How to Keep the Faith After America Breaks Your Back

Old Mint Man

Last week I spent some time with this gentleman outside the Old Mint.

He’s a jazz musician. Played with some of the greats up and down California, the kind names you’d recognize if you knew anything about the real music, the stuff that mattered before everything got packaged and sold back to us as nostalgia. He taught at Foothill and De Anza colleges. Had students. Had a life built on the thing he loved, the thing he was born to do.

Then 2008 happened. The bottom fell out for him like it did for so many others. Not because he failed. Not because he wasn’t good enough. But because the world decided that his kind of excellence didn’t matter anymore, that there wasn’t room for it in the new economy of fear and contraction. He sold his horn in 2011. Try to wrap your head around that for a second. Your instrument, the thing that’s been an extension of your body, your voice, your entire reason for getting up in the morning…

Gone.

Traded for rent money, for food, for survival.

But he’s not stopping.

He’s always teaching. Still passing it on, even without the horn in his hands. He’s putting a band together. And he feels the turn coming, that shift in the air that tells you maybe, just maybe, things are about to break your way again.

That’s not optimism. That’s not delusion. That’s what it means to be a musician, to be an artist. You don’t do it because it’s easy or because it pays. You do it because you don’t have a choice. Because even when everything’s stripped away, the music remains.

And you keep going.

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