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Photographic Portraits

20 entries

On the Brutal Intimacy of Stealing Souls

I point a camera at someone's face and suddenly I'm in the business of truth telling, except truth is slippery and faces are liars and the whole enterprise is about capturing something that exists for maybe a tenth of a second before it's gone forever. It's like trying to bottle lightning while the lightning is staring back at me, judging my lens choice. The thing about portraits: real portraits, not the garbage fire of digital self mythology, is that they require a kind of savage honesty that makes people uncomfortable. I'm asking someone to sit still while I examine them, really examine them, finding the hairline cracks in their carefully constructed self presentation. It's intimate in a way that feels almost violent. I'm taking something from them whether they know it or not. And here's the dirty secret: the best portraits happen when my subject forgets I'm there, or when they're so exhausted from performing that the mask slips. That moment when the rockstar's sneer dissolves into genuine weariness, when the directors or choreographers practiced confidence cracks and I see the frightened kid underneath. That's when I press the shutter. Not before. Too early and I've got nothing but theater. The technical stuff: aperture, light, composition. That's just vocabulary. I need to know it the way a writer needs to know grammar, but grammar never wrote a sentence that mattered. What matters is recognizing the exact instant when someone becomes real in front of me, when all their bullshit falls away and they're just there, naked and human and impossibly fragile. Black and white helps. Color is too democratic, too forgiving. Black and white forces contrast, makes me choose what matters and what doesn't. Shadows become meaningful. Light becomes a statement rather than just illumination. You want to understand want I'm getting at here? Stop thinking about photography and start thinking about archaeology. I'm digging through layers of persona and pretense to find something essential. Sometimes I find it. Sometimes I don't. But when I do, when I catch that fraction of a second where someone's soul peeks out from behind their eyes, I've got something that'll outlive both of us.
Sankai Juku Master Class

Sankai Juku Master Class

You walk into Roble Gym expecting, I don’t know, something mystical maybe. Incense. Robes. The kind of earnest California spirituality that makes you want to jump off a bridge. What you get instead is bodies. Real bodies, doing impossible things with physics. These dancers move like they’re negotiating a peace treaty with the floor, every […]

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Robert Rosenwasser, LINES Ballet

The Discard Pile

The real work happens in the stuff everybody else is throwing out. That’s it. That’s the whole goddamn secret. Most people file that stuff under “ignore and move on.” They’re right to do that, if they want to stay functional, keep their jobs, not alienate their friends. But if I’m trying to make something that […]

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Solipsism on dreary beaches… grown almost ugly

So this is what it comes to: you, the mirror, and the slow-motion shipwreck of your own face disappearing under a forest of hair that screams “I HAVE GIVEN UP” in fourteen different dialects. Robinson Crusoe, sure, if Crusoe had Netflix, bottomless carbs, and a growing suspicion that Friday was never coming because there was […]

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Solipsism on dreary beaches… grown almost ugly
Zakir Hussain: You’re always a student
Carl Weber, Stanford University, Stanford, Theater and Performance Studies, Stanford TAPS, Bertolt Brecht, theater, theatre, director, directing, Heiner Muller, San Francisco, professor, education, bay area, Stanford Drama

Carl Weber: What I Owe the Dead

The first time doesn’t exist in my head, it’s just gone, one of those origin stories you lose in the noise. But there’s your laugh, like gravel and light, cutting through those parties at my parents’ place. There’s me, just a kid, watching some play you’d put together, and you, you, asking what I thought. […]

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Betty Reid Soskin, California Studies Association, National Parks, Bay Area History

Betty Reid Soskin at The California Studies Association

Betty Reid Soskin at ninety-four, ninety-four, standing there receiving an award named after Carey McWilliams, and the only thing more beautiful than the image is knowing she didn’t wait for permission to make history happen. She made it happen, hustled it into existence, because that’s what you do when the official story is a lie […]

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Hands That Refuse

Hands That Refuse

Look at those hands. Two generations of women who’ve spent their lives insisting that the body means something beyond what commerce wants to sell us, beyond what convention wants to contain. Anna Halprin, 90 something years deep into the radical proposition that movement is democratic, that anybody’s dance matters, holding hands with Tonyanna Borkovi, who’s […]

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Carmen from Genet’s The Balcony

Backstage: Ryan Tacata as Carmen in The Balcony at San Francisco’s Old Mint. Entering a brothel means rejecting the world. Here I am and here I stay. Your laws and orders and the passions are my reality. Jean Genet, The Balcony

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Genet, the balcony, site specific theatre, san francisco, photography, documentation, avant garde, experimental
Nathalie Brilliant, site specific, theater, theatre, Collected Works, bay area, san francisco, Jamie Lyons, Jean Genet, The Balcony
Old Mint Man

Teaching Without an Axe: Or, How to Keep the Faith After America Breaks Your Back

Last week I spent some time with this gentleman outside the Old Mint. He’s a jazz musician. Played with some of the greats up and down California, the kind names you’d recognize if you knew anything about the real music, the stuff that mattered before everything got packaged and sold back to us as nostalgia. […]

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caroline parsons, maria leigh, julie douglas, we players, fort point, trio, witches, site specific, performance, site integrated, theatre, theater

When the Hurlyburly’s Done: Three Witches Laugh at Fort Point

Look at these three women perched on the Fort Point rooftop in San Francisco, caught between acts of this site integrated Macbeth production, and what you’re seeing isn’t stagecraft. It’s the raw, unvarnished truth of what it means to be fully present in the middle of nowhere that matters. They’re witches, sure, but right now […]

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Ava Roy, sailing, sailboat, san francisco, Ingwe, ava roy

Captain Ava

The sail, the play of its pulse so like our own lives: so thin and yet so full of life, so noiseless when it labors hardest, so noisy and impatient when least effective. Henry David Thoreau Here’s the thing about getting on a boat with someone in the middle of San Francisco Bay: you find […]

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Grandma

Look at Brian Yarish. Six-foot-five in his stockings, but he’s not wearing stockings tonight, he’s wearing five, maybe six inches of platform heel that would break my ankle in three places just looking at them. He’s working his way down Franconia like he owns the concrete, like he invented concrete, and you know what? Maybe […]

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Grandma
Ava Roy, For Point San Francisco, We Players, Golden Gate Bridge, theater bay area, site integrated theater, Ava Roy Stanford
Jamie Lyons, Stanford, San Francisco, City Hall, City Hall San Francisco, Self Portrait City Hall

The Reflection

So here’s the deal: I’m early. Not fashionably early, not strategically early. Just early. Standing on the steps of San Francisco City Hall like some kind of ceremonial parking cone, waiting for Dan and Ciara to show up and get married in a way that doesn’t count except that it counts more than anything that’s […]

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Mirror

Mirror

Solipsism in a mirror I didn’t want any new clothes at all; because if I had to look ugly anyway, I wanted to at least be comfortable. I let the awful clothes affect even my posture, walked around with my back bowed, my shoulders drooping, my hands and arms all over the place. I was […]

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Sharka, the most interesting dog in the world

The Most Interesting Dog in The World

I’ve spent time with supposed intellectuals, credential-clutching Ivy League types who couldn’t find their own ass with both hands and a roadmap, people so wrapped up in their own mythology they’ve forgotten what actual intelligence looks like when it’s staring them dead in the face with those dark, knowing eyes. And then there’s Sharka. This […]

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Off-Duty Mystics in a Moving Box

It was like falling down an elevator shaft and landing in a pool full of mermaids. Hunter S. Thompson I don’t know what the fuck I expected. You show up at a museum, they hustle you into an elevator, and suddenly you’re trapped in a metal box with strangers while someone’s doing something that might […]

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Grotowski Workcenter, San Francisco. museum of modern art, theatre, theater, performance, documentation, photography, jamie lyons

This Is What It Actually Costs

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Niki Ulehla
Jamie Lyons, James

The Use of Uselessness

People ask me, ‘What is the use of climbing Mount Everest?’ and my answer must at once be, ‘It is of no use.’There is not the slightest prospect of any gain whatsoever. Oh, we may learn a little about the behaviour of the human body at high altitudes, and possibly medical men may turn our […]

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