Tagged — Jamie Lyons
Music doesn't influence shit. That's the word people use when they're afraid of the truth. Music doesn't gently suggest. It doesn't politely recommend. Music grabs you by the throat at three in the morning and makes you remember that one summer when everything mattered, when you were alive enough to bleed.
Every type of music, from Callas murdering them softly at the Palais Garnier to Pigpen's whiskey-soaked blues, from the avant-garde noise merchants to whatever saccharine pop garbage your nephew won't shut up about, they're all doing the same essential thing: They're telling me who I am before I figured it out myself. That Kronos Quartet piece that made me weep? That wasn't them. That was me, recognizing my own ghost in the sound.
The cathedral organs, the three-chord punk snarl, the Indian tabla conversations that spiral into infinity, they're not backgrounds to my life, they're the architecture of consciousness itself. Sound shapes the spaces I inhabit. It tells me when to fuck, when to fight, when to finally admit I'm terrified of dying alone.
I pretend I choose my music, like I'm this discriminating consumer at some sonic buffet. Bullshit. Music chooses me. It finds me when I'm vulnerable (drunk, heartbroken, young, old, whatever) and it carves itself into my DNA. That song from 1987? It's not nostalgia. It's a time machine built from guitar feedback and regret.
The experimental composers torturing cellos in abandoned warehouses, the grandmother humming Puccini while folding laundry, the kid in his bedroom making beats on a laptop held together with electrical tape, they're all engaged in the same savage, necessary act: translating the inchoate scream of being alive into something the rest of us can finally understand.
Music is the thing that was there before language and will be there after. It's not about anything. It is everything. The shape of every moment I've ever lived, crystallized into vibration and air.
FalseArt 2024
Here’s what happened when the Duke walked into God’s house with a swing band and told the congregation to get off their knees: September 1965, Grace Cathedral, and Duke Ellington’s bringing the whole damn orchestra into this Gothic pile of stone and righteousness like he’s staging a raid on heaven itself. Not asking permission. Not […]
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Individualism 2020
Here’s the thing about paradise during the apocalypse: it makes me feel like an asshole for even having the thought that I might be suffering. The Westside’s giving you everything, that relentless California sunshine hammering down like some kind of cosmic joke, the Pacific doing its eternal churn six blocks away, and I’m sitting there […]
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December 19, 1958. The Palais Garnier. You want to talk about a moment when the universe temporarily stopped fucking around? This might have been it. Maria Callas didn’t just perform that night. She walked into that gilded Belle Époque monument to French self-satisfaction, all those marble staircases and chandelier’d horseshoe balconies where the bourgeoisie had […]
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Industries 2018
I’m not going to pretend I understand what Alonzo sees when he makes a ballet, but I know what it feels like to hunt something elusive with a camera, that split second when bodies in motion become something else entirely. Yerba Buena Center for the Arts, October 2018, Alonzo’s remount of his baroque meditation Handel, […]
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Cinematics 2018
This city used to be where you could fuck around and find out. Not in some precious way, but in the way that actually meant something, where a choreographer could look at a quartet that’s been demolishing the boundaries of what four strings can do for decades and say, “Yeah, let’s see what happens when […]
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Speculation 2018
The sacred sense of beyond, of timelessness, of a world which had an eternal value and the substance of which was divine had been given back to me today by this friend of mine who taught me dancing. Hermann Hesse This isn’t about pretty. This was never about pretty. What I caught here, what I […]
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You don’t understand what it means to be in that room until you’re in that room. Not watching, that’s what tourists do, what the assholes with the expensive seats do. I mean in it, close enough to see the sweat, the micro-adjustments of his fingers, the way his whole body becomes an argument with silence. […]
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Industries 2016
There’s this thing that happens when you walk into a space like YBCA and someone’s decided to call the thing a retrospective. That word alone, retrospective, it’s already half-dead on arrival, embalmed in institutional reverence before the first note even sounds. But what I’m getting from this image, from whatever the hell Luciano conjured in […]
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Industries 2016
Contemporary chamber ensemble Wild Rumpus perform Fausto Romitelli’s 2003 video opera An Index of Metals at Freight and Salavage in Berkeley. Nathaniel Berman conductor…
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Speculation 2016
Derek isn’t here to make pretty ambience; he is hunting for the frequency where ancient violence meets the Pacific’s indifference, and somehow in this process the conceptual exercise transforms into something I can actually feel in my chest, the kind of site responsive work that doesn’t explain itself or apologize, that just exists in a […]
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The academics want you to believe that live performance (the sweating, breathing, bleeding out loud presence of actual human bodies in actual space) carries some sacred charge that recordings can’t touch. That there’s magic in the ephemeral, nobility in the disappearing act. Every moment unique, finite, gone the second it happens. Like watching your best […]
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Individualism 2015
Last week I spent some time with this gentleman outside the Old Mint. He’s a jazz musician. Played with some of the greats up and down California, the kind names you’d recognize if you knew anything about the real music, the stuff that mattered before everything got packaged and sold back to us as nostalgia. […]
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Industries 2014
We Players Vessels for Improvisation at Hyde Street Pier with inkBoat and Rova Saxophone Quartet. In the long history of humankind (and animal kind, too) those who learned to collaborate and improvise most effectively have prevailed. Charles Darwin
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FalseArt 2013
Here’s the thing about live performance that all our academic seminars and theoretical frameworks can’t quite capture… it’s a fucking high-wire act where the wire is invisible and everyone’s pretending it doesn’t exist until someone falls. What we’re witnessing here isn’t just a “mistake”, that reductive, bourgeois term we use when our pedagogical comfort zones […]
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So here I am at Fort Mason, in some rehearsal studio that smells like last week’s ambition and tonight’s desperate grab at relevance. The Magic Theater closed Buried Child and somebody thought I needed cheerleaders. Fucking cheerleaders. And a tuba, or maybe they’re gogo dancers, at this point, who gives a shit? The distinction matters […]
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Industries 2013
There’s this guy Luciano Chessa, Italian, classically trained at Bologna’s conservatory, PhD from UC Davis, teaches at the San Francisco Conservatory, and he’s here at the Performance Studies International conference making a goddamn piano sing like it’s possessed by the ghost of Luigi Russolo himself. He’s performing Variazioni su un Oggetto di Scena, Variations on […]
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Industries 2012
Underground venues are a photographer’s nightmare. The light’s always wrong, some amber wash from a single gel, maybe a practical lamp someone dragged in from their living room, and darkness everywhere else. Viracocha is no exception. I’m fumbling with ISO settings, knowing most shots are gonna have grain like sandpaper, trying to find an angle […]
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Absolute Solipsism 2012
Nature’s first green is gold, Her hardest hue to hold. Her early leaf’s a flower; But only so an hour. Then leaf subsides to leaf. So Eden sank to grief, So dawn goes down to day. Nothing gold can stay. Robert Frost, Nothing Gold Can Stay Beauty… it’s a goddamn trap, and this photograph proves […]
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